Monday, September 25, 2006,11:00 PM
Pieces of Me
Sometimes I truly feel there's not enough of me to go around. I don't know whether I consciously get myself into situations where I bite off more than I can chew or these situations just happen to find me.
I go to school full time. That's a given. Maybe having class from 1pm tp 9pm with no breaks on Mondays wasn't the best of schedules but I chose it and that's that. It's better than my schedule last year when I had school every single day except Friday.
I work. I can breathe a little easier because I only work two days rather than the three days a week I worked the past two semesters. Less money but my 6 hours of work a week is comparable to someone working 40 hours a week on earnings of $12/hr. So really, no complaints there either.
I have a GRE exam October 2nd (which I am SOOO not prepared for) and graduate application due the 15th. Fine. I chose that too.
But I have all these other little things that are making me a little crazy. Stuff that cut into my studying time. Stuff that sort of overwhelm me when I think about them.
1. I have to do an inventory of supplies for the Northeast Mission of Hope AND enter them into a database that can be accessed for future inputs or analysis with regards to tax deductions. This is taking FOREVER. There is a storage room full of supplies that are not in any particular order and I must sort through them and write it all down. I truly don't know how that's going to happen within the 10 weeks that they have for a deadline.
2. NEMOH needs a website. The person they ask is me. Ms. Computer Science major. That's fine if only...
3. ....I can even start with my mom's business website. We need to do this soon. I have no clue how I'm going to fit this in OR how I'm going to transfer between hosts. Registerfly sucks as a host by the way.
4. Mom needs me to do all the computer stuff like make an invoice or an ad. The invoice would be fine if only they had a working printer so I could just email it to her so that she doesn't keep calling for me to drop it off! The ad is fine too...I like doing ads.
5. But then she tries to get me to fill out something online when she could do it herself if she would only learn!!
6. Next, I have to write a letter to the President of the Philippines for my mom on behalf of NEMOH. Why oh why do I have to write this letter?? Its not for me. It has nothing to do with me.
Aside from all that, it seems I'm the only person who can fix electronic things like: making voicemails work, troubleshooting computer glitches, getting a fax to work, getting a paper shredder to work again after getting out the piece of paper that got stuck in the first place.
And then there's the stuff that I do as favors for others that I actually like doing:
making cds with cool looking labels on them
making and putting together nice thank you cards
making a (surprise) scrapbook for someone
Do I do too many things at once on purpose? I really don't know. Do people come to me because they know I'll do it? Maybe. Do I actually LIKE thinking of myself as a Ms. Fix-It or as someone that can be counted on. I think so. I just don't know if I know when to say: Not right now.
Everyone wants a piece of me.
Maybe I'm just feeling this way because there happens to be so many things that need to be done within a certain amount of time.
I remember something Ron had said to me once: I wish there was another one of you.
Yeah, me too.
I go to school full time. That's a given. Maybe having class from 1pm tp 9pm with no breaks on Mondays wasn't the best of schedules but I chose it and that's that. It's better than my schedule last year when I had school every single day except Friday.
I work. I can breathe a little easier because I only work two days rather than the three days a week I worked the past two semesters. Less money but my 6 hours of work a week is comparable to someone working 40 hours a week on earnings of $12/hr. So really, no complaints there either.
I have a GRE exam October 2nd (which I am SOOO not prepared for) and graduate application due the 15th. Fine. I chose that too.
But I have all these other little things that are making me a little crazy. Stuff that cut into my studying time. Stuff that sort of overwhelm me when I think about them.
1. I have to do an inventory of supplies for the Northeast Mission of Hope AND enter them into a database that can be accessed for future inputs or analysis with regards to tax deductions. This is taking FOREVER. There is a storage room full of supplies that are not in any particular order and I must sort through them and write it all down. I truly don't know how that's going to happen within the 10 weeks that they have for a deadline.
2. NEMOH needs a website. The person they ask is me. Ms. Computer Science major. That's fine if only...
3. ....I can even start with my mom's business website. We need to do this soon. I have no clue how I'm going to fit this in OR how I'm going to transfer between hosts. Registerfly sucks as a host by the way.
4. Mom needs me to do all the computer stuff like make an invoice or an ad. The invoice would be fine if only they had a working printer so I could just email it to her so that she doesn't keep calling for me to drop it off! The ad is fine too...I like doing ads.
5. But then she tries to get me to fill out something online when she could do it herself if she would only learn!!
6. Next, I have to write a letter to the President of the Philippines for my mom on behalf of NEMOH. Why oh why do I have to write this letter?? Its not for me. It has nothing to do with me.
Aside from all that, it seems I'm the only person who can fix electronic things like: making voicemails work, troubleshooting computer glitches, getting a fax to work, getting a paper shredder to work again after getting out the piece of paper that got stuck in the first place.
And then there's the stuff that I do as favors for others that I actually like doing:
making cds with cool looking labels on them
making and putting together nice thank you cards
making a (surprise) scrapbook for someone
Do I do too many things at once on purpose? I really don't know. Do people come to me because they know I'll do it? Maybe. Do I actually LIKE thinking of myself as a Ms. Fix-It or as someone that can be counted on. I think so. I just don't know if I know when to say: Not right now.
Everyone wants a piece of me.
Maybe I'm just feeling this way because there happens to be so many things that need to be done within a certain amount of time.
I remember something Ron had said to me once: I wish there was another one of you.
Yeah, me too.
