Saturday, March 10, 2007,11:09 AM
A New Perspective
It's amazing when your eyes are opened to how many gray areas life has. I believe I'm pretty nonjudgmental (or at least I try to be). I do think I'm open to ideas. However, there are some things I just found out that I had considered to be black and white; but now somehow the lines have blurred and it's all fuzzy and gray. It has really made me think that, geez, life is freaking complex.
I remember when I was 18, I thought I knew it all and that I was capable of making decisions for myself because I knew what was best for me. God, how wrong I was. (When I'm a mom, I'm watching my 18-year-old like a HAWK). And now I'm 29 and have somehow regressed...or is it that I've acquired some wisdom? I don't plunge into things anymore. I don't dive right in with my eyes closed and who cares if the pool is only 3 feet deep. (Ok, maybe once in a while I feel the need to be spontaneous.) My point is, I'm a little wiser now. BUT, not so wise that I can't learn new things and that's where this post comes in.
Learned something new about myself and about life and its refreshing...and scary. I read this book or story once where this mirror shows any person who looks into it who he really is. Deep into the soul of that person. All of his flaws, his thoughts, his inner core. And in the story, many people have looked into the mirror only to be agonized by what they saw. In the story, the main character had to be strong enough to look in and accept himself for who he was, flaws and all. So learning about yourself is a revelation but not necessarily a good feeling. In my case, I'm always glad to get new perspectives on things. But at the same time, its making me anxious because I have to regain my balance and control. That's why it's great to have a friend to talk to, to listen, to be open, to be nonjudgmental, and to give their own perspectives.
One day at a time, Marichu.
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On a different note, this is hilarious. Well, at least to me.
I remember when I was 18, I thought I knew it all and that I was capable of making decisions for myself because I knew what was best for me. God, how wrong I was. (When I'm a mom, I'm watching my 18-year-old like a HAWK). And now I'm 29 and have somehow regressed...or is it that I've acquired some wisdom? I don't plunge into things anymore. I don't dive right in with my eyes closed and who cares if the pool is only 3 feet deep. (Ok, maybe once in a while I feel the need to be spontaneous.) My point is, I'm a little wiser now. BUT, not so wise that I can't learn new things and that's where this post comes in.
Learned something new about myself and about life and its refreshing...and scary. I read this book or story once where this mirror shows any person who looks into it who he really is. Deep into the soul of that person. All of his flaws, his thoughts, his inner core. And in the story, many people have looked into the mirror only to be agonized by what they saw. In the story, the main character had to be strong enough to look in and accept himself for who he was, flaws and all. So learning about yourself is a revelation but not necessarily a good feeling. In my case, I'm always glad to get new perspectives on things. But at the same time, its making me anxious because I have to regain my balance and control. That's why it's great to have a friend to talk to, to listen, to be open, to be nonjudgmental, and to give their own perspectives.
One day at a time, Marichu.
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On a different note, this is hilarious. Well, at least to me.
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